Alzheimer light?

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    1. Blij om dit te lezen… ik ben soms echt bang dat er iets mis is met mij. Zou het heel misschien door het vliegen komen? Al hoor ik anderen er niet over.
      Grappig stukje maar eigenlijk niet

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